After a beautiful week of sunshine, not wearing boots and being able to walk through Central Park again, the weather decided to abruptly turn. The monsoon outside had me fighting to get to work on time and still looking cute and kept me inside my room the size of a box during the night. I finally got to watch "When Harry Met Sally" and to everyone who told me this is my life in a nut shell, I got the message Deej and Jess, thanks . It also gave me some time to think about how I feel about New York. I've been so busy with school, work and flying back and forth. I have no idea what I want to do, I know the things I enjoy, but how do you choose just one thing? My biggest passion in life is music, but I don't know what to do with it. Its just not a reliable career choice to follow. I grew up going to work with my grandfather and being surrounded by the business world, and I think that is why from a young age I always enjoyed being at work. So I have a business brain, but all I want to do is sing, where does that leave me? It leaves me with no answers, and if you haven't already figured it out, I am a complete control freak, and not knowing my next step is makes me a nervous wreck. So after chewing on some Tums and seeing a college counselor to decide on a major, she tried to calm me down and explain how being undecided is okay. After thinking about it, I started to believe her and feel better about the whole thing. I just need to learn that I can't be in control all the time, and just have some fun. There are no consistency in my life right now, but what I've learned the last few months is that I can get through anything and be okay anywhere I go. So even though I don't know whats next, I know that I will be okay and find a way to, as Tim Gunn would say, make it work. Does this mean I'm growing up?
No comments:
Post a Comment