Balance

I often say that I am trying to find a balance to my life and that I strive to be able to enjoy my everyday life. Unfortunately I don’t believe that people can slow down until they are shaken, a wake-up call if you will. I don’t wish upon anyone some of my experiences, but I don’t regret them to be able to recognize the value of the positive from negative. I came home this summer and wasn’t all that excited to be home, I was too focused on myself and working. I was abruptly put back in my place by one of my best friends. I don’t use the title of best friend lightly, I’m just not a huge fan of titles, and it often creates unattainable expectations. With that said, I believe a best friend is someone you can tell anything to and get an honest answer and be told the ugly truth when needed. Although she didn’t want to be so blunt, I sat down with her late one of my first nights home and she told me she had to tell me some very bad news that would change some things. This is one of those core-shaking moments, and I attempted to handle it as composed as I could and quickly went into problem-solving mode and tried to ease the situation. This was not a moment I could snap my fingers and make it go away, knowing my difficulty with emotions, she simply said, “you have already done more than you even know, just by being here for me”. Amazing, after a horrible year of dealing with a traumatic family issue she just basically said its all good, she just needed someone to talk to. This would be the moment I broke down crying and she ended up consoling me, great friends I am. The point to this overly personal story is, I needed her to say to me “you have no idea how lucky you are”, she’s right, I am so anxious and crazed about my next move that I completely forget to appreciate everything around me. So this is one of those moments, where I had to stop, take a step back and appreciate. There is nothing worth more in life than love, love from your friends, family and the people you surround yourself with. This is going to be the year of love and happiness, and that is what my best friend taught me. Its an interesting tone to start my summer off on, but I think its important.