Being home has been nice, no complaints about the amazing weather, but I am honestly having a difficult time with my friends. I just feel like because I live so far, that I am behind in everything. I definitely take part of the responsibility for not staying connected as well as I should have, but I can’t help feeling disappointed. There is a major disconnect with so many people that I felt so close to only a year ago. I never expected to stay connected to everyone and I know that people are busy with their own lives, but what did I miss? There are so many day to day things that I will never be able to catch up on, which I knew would be an issue with me moving. I’m trying not to take it all personally, but for some reason I can’t help but to feel forgotten and hurt. When I lived in LA I always made plans for all my friends and invited them over, and when I'm not around, there's no where for them to just hang. I can honestly say I always tried to make everything still work after I left. I know I am not the only one feeling this way, it’s a normal part of these transitional years, unfortunately I have always thought of my friends as stability and very much like family. My usual reaction is to just throw myself into work and forget them all and move forward, but I am hoping that’s not what’s going to happen. I am hopeful that I will be pleasantly surprised and that some things can return to the way they were, otherwise I pretty much done putting any effort forth. I also understand and accept that things are always changing and that’s okay too. So should we hold our friends to certain standards or is it unfair? What should friends be held accountable for?
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